April 05, 2024

we're sticking together

and im the idiot with the painted face in the corner taking up space, but when he walks in im love me and my husband we are doing better is always been just him and me together, and at least in this lifetime we're sticking together

 

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There are words being said going against our will

we spit them out like blood coming from our bowels

despiteful, hurtful, untrue if you will

we are aware, but are said regardless

we let them escape

you asked why am i still by your side

but the truth is that i'm better off with you than without you

the "will be" is with you, and that is a decision i made years ago

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It is despiteful -the whole being not just the words-

and we try to conceal that identity

but it is what we are, even if it is not acceptable

the truth is that regardless of moments, we've done it all and i'm at peace

even if it was easier leaving all behind, but in reality it is not

and the problem is not getting used to it, but loving that familiarity, being imperfect together 

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you're growing tired of me 

you love me so hard and i still cant sleep

youre growing tired of me 

and all of the things i dont talk about

sorry i dont want your touch

is not that i dont want you

sorry i can take your touch is just that i felt in love with a war

and nobody told me it ended, and it left a pearl in my head and i roll it around every night just to watch it glow, every night baby that's where i go

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theres a hole that you fill, you fill but is just that i fell in love with a war, and nobody told me it ended, and it left a pearl in my head and i roll it

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in the real of you 

i saw the same side on your neck

and felt that taste of you bubbling up inside of me 

but with everybody watching us our every move we do have reputations

will you keep a secret, dont let them have it

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so come inside and be with me alone with me alone with me alone 

if you will let me give you pinky promise kisses

then i wouldnt have to scream your name at top of every roof in the city of my heart

if i could see you

once more to see you

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come inside and be with me alone with me alone with me alone 

if you would let me give you pinky promise kisses then i wouldnt have to scream your name at top of every roof in the city of my heart

if i could see you once more to see you 

if i could see you once more to see you

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my baby my baby, you're my baby say it to me, 

baby my baby

tell your baby that i'm your baby

i bet on losing dogs

i know they're losing and i pay for my place by the ring 

where ill be looking in their eyes when they're done

ill be there on their side 

i'm losing by their side

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will you love me

baby lose when im losing dogs

i know they're losing and i pay for my place by the ring 

where ill be looking in their eyes when they're done

i wanna feel it

i bet on losing dogs

i always watch you when im fine ill be fine how youll be overly looking in my eyes when i come

someone to watch me die

someone to watch me die

i bet on losing dogs

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running through your hollow bones

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​today i will wear my white button down

im tired of wanting more, i feel im finally worn

for you have a way of promising things

and ive been a forest fire

im a forest fire

and im the fire and im the forest and im the witness watching it

i stand in a valley watching it and you are not there at all

so today i will wear my white button down

i can at least be neat

walk out and be seen as clean

and ill go to work and ill go to sleep and ill love the littler things,

ill love some littler things

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the black wool of the window where you sleep 

the night breeze carries something sweet, a peach tree

why women dont get the blues but i find that lately ive been crying like a tall child

so please hurry leave me i cant breath please dont say you love me 

japones

one word from you and i will jump off this clieaf im hanging 

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and i was so young when i behaved 25, yet now i find im growing into a tall child. 

and i dont wanna go home, let me walk to the top of the big night sky

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one wrd from you and i will jusm of off this cliff im hanging 

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please hurry leave me i cant breath, please dont say you love me

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i don't know what to do without you

i dont know where to put my hands

ive been trying to 

i dont need the world sto see that ive been the best i can be but i dont think i can stand to be where you dont see me 

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so stay with me, hold my hand there's no need to be brave

and all the quiet nights you bare, seal them up with care. 

no one need to know that they're there for i will hold them for you

cause all i ever wanted is here

all i ever want to all i want is always here

it is always here

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all of this turbulence wasnt forcasted apologies from the intercome

and im relieved that i left my room tidy

they never know how i starand while my dreams made music

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I want you
I hold one card
That I can't use
But I want you

You're coming back
And it's the end of the world
We're starting over
And I love you, darling
And I am done, dear

You're in the house
And I am here in the car
I just need a quiet place
Where I can scream how I love you

I found you
I found the door
But when I stepped through
There was no floor

You're coming back
And it's the end of the world
We're starting over
And I love you, darling
And I am done, dear

You're in the house
And I am here in the car
I just need a quiet place
Where I can scream how I love you

I want you
I want you

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You're an angel, I'm a dog
Or you're a dog and I'm your man
You believe me like a god
I'll destroy you like I am

I'm sorry I'm the one you love
No one will ever love me like you again
So when you leave me, I should die
I deserve it, don't I?

I can feel it gettin' near
Like flashlights comin' down the way
One day you'll figure me out
I'll meet judgment by the hounds

People always gave me love
Others were never to blame after all
You believe me like a god
I'll betray you like a man